Fully Exposed

You ever have those weeks where something comes out of no where and your like what just happened…lol. I’ve been strangely happy the last couple of weeks and feeling so much better about everything. Accepting who I am, feeling strong and liberated in my beliefs, loving what I do and looking forward to so much more. Then out of no where i was challenged by something that was said to me. At first I was shocked and really kind of taken back because truly I could not understand where this person was coming from. When I heard the words come out of this persons mouth saying that I had projected my heart pain into this person I needed a few days to really analyze these words spoken to me. As an empath I understood the conversation but couldn’t relate to what they were feeling because my intention in this situation was sending unconditional love from what I had learnt from Victor. This bothered me so much that I spoke to my therapist about it. During this session I had an incredible ah ha moment where I discovered that when you feel harm is at you or that there is an incredible amount of energy that takes away from you to deal with something simple then those are not your people in life. I’ve always struggled with being liked and accepted by everyone and now I understand that those individuals that I feel stressed to have a relationship with aren’t my people. I don’t want drama in my life anymore. It’s no longer important to have to please everyone because I’m afraid of what they will do or say about me. Those are not my people. This was really hard for me to come too this conclusion I just always thought you take it to please therefore you will be liked. That constant urge to make sure everything is okay because I don’t want friction. It reminds me of when I was a teenager being abused and thinking everyone was against me and I needed to stay above water just to breathe. Letting go of the past is so difficult when it took 30 years of building that certain character all to just trash it and start over. This starting over has been the best days of my life even though some of the hardest at times so worth it. I’m just so grateful for seeing all these things. This weeks picture represents exactly where I am at this moment in time. Feeling strong, feeling very supported by my people and the work that I’ve done to get here. There is a beautiful softness as well, I know In my heart how I feel at all times because I allow myself to go there, I’m not afraid, and I’m not afraid to voice it! A few days later I had the most wonderful experience with one of my people, two hearts coming together to share in their own sadness but together. Imagine this just like in the movies, we are talking and both start to get emotional and then automatically grab each other to hug crying and literally drop everything that was in our hands. It was an incredible moment of sharing space and time together. What an amazing way to show such pure love, honesty, rawness, sensitivity, compassion all in one hug. It was beautiful. Don’t you think the sequence of events that happened this week are quite interesting. I am thankful, I am blessed, I am loved. Much love Nicole xoxo